First of all, welcome on the forum. I completely understand your feelings. Earning a decent livelihood has become an uphill task especially, in overpopulated and countries like Pakistan and India. But, I will advise you not to loose heart and keep working hard with full vigour because what other option do you have? Aside from preparing for IAS, you should explore other options as well. You could update your education by scoring scholarship in any reputed university, local or foreign. Entrepreneurship and freelancing are also good options. You should not hesitate from starting small because, with handwork, one can surely attain a reputable standing in one’s field of choice. This is life. Giving up is not an option; you should keep moving forward.