Asalam-o-Alikum!
So sad to hear that! As an aspirant I can understand your pain. I myself have failed it twice. It really hurts not seeing your name in that magical list. However, this is not the end of life; life is much more than CSS. Have you ever thought why students pay extra attention and energy to CSS? Just because we are so sterostyped of being CSP. We unduely attribute value to these jobs. They are just jobs like others.e.g. People who are CEO , directors etc have also done a lot of hardwork for their position and title ,but had we ever appreciated them ?the way we praise a CSS passed candidate? Never. This is just a job, you have failed just a test for job.
so, it really dosent matter.
May Allah help you in this hard time. Ameen.