Originally Posted by umark

After sleeping on it, I think I have come to terms with the result. It wasn't meant to be and it is what it is. One has to reconcile with the facts and move on.
But what frustrates me is that after spending 2.5 years on CSS, I am still as clueless as I was when I started this journey in 2015. I came back from the United Kingdom due to my sheer passion for Foreign Services. I incorporated everything I was told or asked to; join academies, English professors, practice, mock exams, how to write an answer, headings, outlines and yet here I am after 2 attempts, simply clueless as to why I failed. A "well-wisher" called me last night and told me that I should definitely go for the third attempt but I just feel like I don't have anything else to give or add to my preparation which could make a difference this time around.
I will also take this opportunity to urge all the dreamers to keep dreaming and work towards realizing your dreams. If you want to do CSS, please do it. Maybe the system is rigged but if there is anyone who can bring about a change, it's us. This system needs to be infused with new blood. Don't let anyone tell you that your dreams and aspirations are not valid. Make it happen!! Best of luck!!!

Originally Posted by Awesum Farhan

I rarely post anything. However, after reading your post, I would say you "One more time (Edison)". I, myself, could not get through, but i am committed, more determined, and looking for something bigger than i expected this time. Who knows, reward is merely a step ahead.

Originally Posted by Theodosius

Umark are you going to take 3rd in 2018 or latter or never

Originally Posted by umark

I will not be availing my third attempt, unfortunately. Best of luck with your next attempt.

Originally Posted by umark

Haha....Thank you!! I don't think I am any less determined or committed than I was before. But I'd be lying if I said that this whole process hasn't played with my self-confidence. I have had my essays crossed out at a mere glance by CSP Officers turned CSS gurus and mind you, the same essays were appreciated by retired government english professors. I have had to listen to comments such as "You need to dumb it down". I didn't know that was a thing but okay. So yeah, I've had my fair share of moments of self-doubt. Nonetheless, I am an optimistic person so it's all good. I have learned so much through this experience and made some great study buddies/friends in the way, something I will always cherish.

Originally Posted by Theodosius

can I ask the reason? because I too am thinking same