A Chapter Closed
 

It started (for me) in the June of 2014. I am never going to forget those days when I voluntarily accepted 8 pm to 8 am night duties in the Oncology ward (so-called 'death ward' in my hospital), just for the preparation of CSS. I spent the nights engrossed in books, with occasional interruptions by patients, barely getting a couple of hours' sleep. The staff and the patients used to sing my praises, considering my late-night vigils a sign of my dutifulness. I too was a happy man. And why wouldn't I be happy? Books had been the sole love of my life. On top of that, I was getting a lot of prayers from the patients for being there for them when nobody else was!

Days passed, along came the February of 2015, and with it the written exams. I attempted them to the best of my abilities. My confidence was at an all-time high. Right after the exams, I returned to the usual hectic routine of the house-job, learning new skills and methods everyday. The thoughts of success and failure arose in my mind side by side every now and then, but I had little time to indulge them!

Life was smooth, I had begun preparing for part-1 FCPS while waiting for the result of written CE-2015. And then came October. It brought not only the 2015 written result, but an earthquake with it as well. I am still figuring whether it was the jolts on the inside or the outside that shook me more! I was shattered! I had my part-1 exam in just 2 weeks, and my confidence was all but lost! I picked up my broken pieces and decided to rebuild myself. Allah blessed me with success in part-1 FCPS. I got my post-graduate training slot within a month of clearing the exam. On top of that, I got inducted as a permanent Medical Officer (BS-17) through PPSC during the same period. And then I got a lovely wife to go with all this as well..!!!!

As I logged in today, I found the news of final 2015 result. I looked for a few names, as I had been planning to congratulate them since October. But I couldn't find them. I only have this to say to them: you are going to make it, sooner or later. Trust the divine wisdom, your success has been delayed for reasons which neither you nor those around you understand--but those are good reasons beyond any doubt, and you shall come to understand them later in life.

For those who have qualified and got allocations, know that I am as happy to see you succeed as if it was my own success. I have learnt that happiness can be found pretty easily, one doesn't even need to look for it--just open your heart and let it flow from all directions. I pray and hope that the allocated ones make fine officers, and go on to contribute towards making Pakistan great in their respective capacities. Your result has given me the closure I needed to move on with my life (and CSS) in the fullest sense. Thank you for that. :)

May be Almighty had some better plans for you bro . Pakistan is in dire need of hardworking,professional and intelligent doctors like you. Keep up the good work and best of luck for all the future endeavours :) This country might have lost a fine bureaucrat in you; but definitely found a good doctor in return

I have to log in to say thanks to sir cogito. His posts give me joy like a novel reading due to his level of describing. And your failure shocked(depressed) me also that how can i even think to take css when sir cogito...? Beyond luck factor

It is always a joy to go through your threads cogito.Hope this one is not a farewell post.

Inspiring story sir.
I can well understand your pain after failure.I also couldn't make it ( after my hardwork )
Sir you are lucky you got somthing in return but think about the people who are still suffering (including me) . I am depressed.I don't know why I couldn't make it after my uncountable hard work... really sir it is a dream ...
Congratulations to all candidates who got their dream (css) . May ALLAH bless them with great success in life (ameen).

“You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it.”

“Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement.”

Allah has chosen you for something else and you are gradually heading towards that.

We shared pleasant time in this forum. I hope you will consider my advice. God bless you.

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