hmmmmmmm! quite tense situation....better any CSP or qualifier answer this post..coz we all are undergoing similar conditions....
All I can Say is ,Think and act positively....and yes sometimes it is better to listen to your heart...i mean intuition.... don't lose your heart.....you said you are determined to do CSS ...that is the requirement....DETERMINATION.....Inshallah you will do it.coz if there is a will there is a way.....
lastly, pray to God coz HE is the ultimate source of help in such exhausting situations....
Best of luck dear...
Regards
Oriental