dear remember just one thing that no one has ideal conditions for the preparation. almost eveybofy faces problems on this circle. secondly these hardships and problems are source of encourage for an aspirant as alama iqbal says
tundiy e bad e mukhalaf se ghabra ae uqab
yej to chalti ha tje ooncha orane k liye
thirdly expect ur parents no one is ur supporter. and lastly books of every type are availabe in marker. so dont lose lose hope and take the courage. may ALLAH b with u