You're just doing self pity here nothing else. If you need motivation you have to ask for it from within yourself rather than asking others to motivate you on this e-type passive forum which will do you no good with all due respect in my opinion. Rest you can keep asking others and people will keep showering you with fancy quotes and rosy words and all you know

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“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right doing, there is a field. I will meet you there.” Rumi