[QUOTE=oriental;210097]Hello Snake :ohmy: I mean brother Snake ;)

Congrats! because you are not alone in this "hell", I mean we are all undergoing through this period of stress and strain.Like you, I burnt all my boats :) matlab ,quit my job for the sake of CSS.Currently I am treading through the valley of what they call ,Bairozgari. Sometimes my fellow friends try to depress my with their pinching jokes,at times I do think what would I do in the event I could not get through the examination.I knew that CSS is a big gamble and if I lost it I would be nowhere. But in spite of all these taunting thought and remarks I took the decision by consoling myself,gartay hain shesawar he maidan-e-Jang main.

Now I have taken the examination and it's almost the result time.I don't know about the future BUT I am confident enough that whatever will happen will happen for the best.I have put all my worries away with this thought in my mind that Our Creator is also our Sustainer,He decides better things for us and He alone know what is best for us.So why not leave things to His discretion :)

Lastly,I remind myself ,whenever any depressing thought crosses my mind that ,I can be Destroyed But not Defeated. :)

So My dear stressed fellow, don't ever lose hope .Remember you have learnt so mush during all this time and now you are more confident ,more knowledgeable ,more quick to understand things and more daring to take risks.:) There is no loss in either case.And with struggle and persistence you would surely get your destination, one day.Listen,Struggle is the meaning of LIfe..........

Chaly chalo k Wo manzil Abi nahe ayee !

Stay positive and Cool. :D

Regards
Oriental[/QUOTE]
My dear brothers! I can understand your feelings and sentiments at this crucial juncture. I also left so many jobs for the sake of CSS like i left the post of Flying Officer during my 5 months training in PAF academy Risalpur, then I left the honourable post of lecturer in grade 17 in islamabad (although now i am in govt. service but as compared to the jobs i left, i think it is not like those). I left my MS leading to PhD for the sake of CSS. I cant tell you how much i sacrificed and was at stake for the sake of CSS. But believe me Allah knows better for all of us. Be patienet and devoted to the cause of your mortal life that is to prepare for the eternal life after death by doing good actions by following the commandments of Almighty Allah and practicing the sunnah of His beloved Prophet Muhammad Sallaloalaihi wassallam. Life is not that revolves around the CSP but life is more meaningful than just serving as a CSP. Make a promise with yourself that in either case of success or failure you will do what Rasoolullah Sallallaho alaihi wassallam enshrined for you 1400 years back. Allah is the Creator of our fates and He knows better about us how to examine us in this mortal life. I wish success for all of you in CSS and beyond the CSS!

Wo mard nahi jo dar jae halaat ke khooni manzar se
jis doar me jeena mushkil ho us doar me jeena lazim he